Sleeping in her chick and bunny pajamas my little girl looks so vulnerable. Babies, by design, are fairly dependent little creatures. But when they are asleep I think they look like hermit crabs without their shells. Any moment she will rise up on to her knees and crawl in to a painted shell. She will cling to the side of a cage in the hopes that a 9-year-old girl on vacation will pick her to take home.
I watch my hermit crab baby sleeping and I think about how lucky I am. I watch my big girl ride down the street on her bicycle and I think about how quickly the time goes by. Almost 18 years ago I met a boy in a bar and then it turned out he was the cook at the restaurant where I got my first job as a bartender. Ten years after that my wondrous Emily June came in to my life. I moved to Chapel Hill and got reacquainted with some old friends who happened to meet a boy at a dog park. A year after that I needed a smile and they sent me out to dinner with that boy from the dog park. He became the man that would be by my side forever. I dreamt of the little boy that would join our family. And that little boy was Lucy Quinn. (!)
The world is so huge. Today’s challenge reminds us that there is 1 chance in 89 billion that life would have involved into mankind. There is 1 chance in 6 billion that your parents would have met. The book reminds us that we are all lucky to be here and suggests we show “cosmic humility.”
I am surrounded by reminders of cosmic humility. My three biggest reminders are walking, breathing, loving examples of luck. I want to believe that my children chose me. I want to believe that MQD is my soul mate. But in my heart of hearts I know that it was chance. In this great big, huge world these three are mine. They flesh out the living, breathing organism that is my house, my family, me.
Today I am in awe. Cosmic humility doesn’t even start to sum it up.